Maybe it’s all dangerous. But the first sentence matters a lot, and the first page matters a lot, so I feel better now than I’m 8,000 words into my current book. I can go back and fix the first sentence later, if I want to, but now, at this point after the introductory part of … Continue reading The beginning of a book is so dangerous, from a writing point of view.
I am now. I just realized it tonight. It’s been rising for about three days, I can retrospectively tell, by my difficulty falling asleep and my waking up earlier and earlier. I am hypomanic now. I should have noticed by my skipping concentration as I’ve been reading, but it’s hard to notice things like that … Continue reading Speeding on bipolar disorder’s mania
I see signs of falling apart, signs of collapse. I’m tempted to stop taking or take too much of my medication. I’m holding too much in, at my sister’s house, I’m worried I’ll blow up or do something offensive. I miss the hospital, which I didn’t think I was going to do, but in a … Continue reading Shaking
About five years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder for the first time. I spent one week in a psych hospital near Los Angeles after a week of crazed, little-sleep computer programming activity, which ended in an emotional crash and my calling a suicide hotline. Since then I’ve been independently re-diagnosed as bipolar by … Continue reading Bipolar I Disorder, most recent episode manic
Review of Things Said in Dreams by Ryne Douglas Pearson, screenwriter of Knowing, bacon aficionado, and family man: ‘Things Said In Dreams’ doesn’t leap off the page. It spills from it and washes over you like a steady stream of consciousness, released in a singular breath of spoken word given life by the protagonist. In a … Continue reading “The Depth Of Salinger With Biting Lyricism”
Some have said that the best creators are also first-line critics in the field in which they create. People talk of the interplay of these two disciplines. I’ve thought about this some. I think that’s true—that people who do something well do both this creative (expository) side and this critical (pruning) side. If one is … Continue reading The critic and the creator
This is the opening of my book, ::HARD. It’s a love story. I’m editing now and will make an ebook when it’s done. ::HARDMatthew Temple @clownfysh Battle not with monsters lest you become a monster.And if you gaze for long into the abyss,the abyss gazes also into you.—Nietzsche I was born in Dayton Ohio. You … Continue reading ::HARD (excerpt, opening)
I hesitate to use the word “conformity” because talk of non-conformity sounds so adolescent. But it’s the right word. I’ve read some terrible writing advice lately. Who am I to say it’s terrible? Ok, let’s say I’ve read some terrible life advice lately. I’m not responding in the comments of those sites, because I’m not … Continue reading Least common denominator conformity